Friday, November 13, 2009

Amazin' Fruit!

Okay, it's not fruit, but it is amazing.

What is, you ask?

Google Calendar! If I want to create something, all I have to do is say something like: "8am-2:30p Opening at Student center" and it automagically fills up the event 8-2:30, where: student center.

The format doesn't have to be that exact, either. Google usually gets it right, and that is awesome.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Chocolate!!!







So, as you can see, there isn't much to say. We made a chocolate cake, and it was FUN!!!! and yummy hehe

Friday, September 25, 2009

Disconnect

I left my phone at home today by accident. As a result, I've caught myself looking for my phone to check the time and for messages at least 3 times today. It's a weird experience to realize how dependent I am on that device. After walking across campus and noticing the various students who had headphones in their ears or a phone in their hands I kind of felt... dirty.

It was like I was watching people's secret lives, right there in front of me. Normally I'm in the cocoon of my own personal tech bubble, and thus able to ignore people in general. But I felt like a voyeur - I was on the outside, looking in and nobody knew it.

All because I left my phone at home.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Little Things

So, I'm laying here next to my sleeping Geekheart, listening to the rain come down like crazy. I went to sleep around 9 with my wife, and then I woke up at 10. So I've just been plinking around on here, listening to her breathe.

This morning I woke up and my left hand felt extremely naked and vulnerable. My wedding ring was gone and I couldn't find it anywhere. It wasn't in the bed, on the floor, on the bathroom counter where I leave it to take a shower... glumly I pulled my CTR ring out of my desk drawer - I may not be able to wear my wedding ring, but at least I can wear a ring on my wedding finger.

I was running late already, but I decided I should try and get us all to pray. So down we knelt, and under a piece of paper lay my ring! Elatedly I put it on, with the remembrance that last night I gave my wife a massage and took my ring off to keep it from getting all lotion-y. If we hadn't had family prayer, I may not have found my ring yet. I'll let you judge for yourself, but to me it was an affirmation that family prayer (and prayer in general) is a good thing (tm).

I love my wife.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Slacker 4.0

So life lately has been very lacking. Wayne and I have been terrible at doing the daily things that we know we need to do. We haven't been reading our scriptures, doing FHE, or studying the lesson for Sunday BEFORE sunday if at all. I have felt rather empty as of late and I think it is due to the lack of keeping our promises with Heavenly Father. Doing all of those things has gotten me this far. I have a wonderful and awesome husband a great family, and a testimony that is so strong. I am MAKING the time from now on. There are no exscuses and I know that. If there is one thing I learned from being on my own when my ex left me is that you are the one who has to make things happen. If you want to be sad then you will be. If you are going to do nothing but complain then your always going to be complaining and never able to listen and see what you need to do.
I have so much in me to give to people around me and I haven't been doing that nearly enough lately. I also haven't been taking very much care of myself. I am no good if I am not taking care of myself. So last night I finally exercised after about 3 weeks and it felt great.
There is a way to get around this and I think Wayne summed it up best when he said "Just do it!"
Thats exactly what I plan to do :)

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Feeling Bleh

So, this week has been kinda blah. So was last week too. I exercised a little bit last week. I haven't done anything this week, I just haven't had any energy. I have been so aggravated with life lately. First it was taking forever to get the sellers on our soon to be house to agree on things that needed to be fixed. Then last night our realtor calls and the sellers have agreed to do all that we asked pretty much so now it's time for an appraisal ( more money out the pocket) and then I don't know what. Then my car crapped out and luckily the guy that sol it to us is willing to work with us. So for now we have this 92 Buick regal custom that is so Awful! I am not even kidding. Mark ( the car guy) knew I didn't like it so he is continuing in his search to find something better. AND.....Julia wants a baby. Yes! Thats right! I want a baby. I have the "Baby fever" So bad! I have never been this way before. Last night I went into WalMArt and there was this baby crying. Probably newborn from the way the cry sounded but my instincts kicked me in the gut or something I don't know what happened but I was darn near to tears listening to that baby cry. I was thinking I needed to go find this baby and calm it down. HELLO! Reality came slamming back into me though and I realised that probably wouldn't be the thing to do. SO anyways. Here I am, going through trials, missing my girls, not making enough money( probably never will), not getting enough sleep, not reading the scriptures the way I should, and not praying. I am SO ready for this coming reunion. I need to recharge!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Gratitude

So, for the past month or so I've been playing Mr. Mom. As the result of a simple Cost/Benefit analysis, it just made more sense for me to stay at home. I wasn't making what it would cost to have the girls at daycare, and then having them at daycare means both of us miss out on spending time with them and my travel time on top of that made it easy to see that Mr. Mom was the preferable option. And it's been a lot of fun.

However, at times it's been a bit of a struggle - for the both of us. For Julia, she hates being away from the girls. And at times the stresses of her job get to her. For me, trying to do all the things Daddy needs to do - whether it's cook and clean, getting kids dressed, trying to teach the kids correct principles... as well as be a husband - it's a lot of work. Then, too, there's a sense of fulfillment in providing for my family that I'm missing out on. I felt that way once - I had been working and Julia was off work for some reason or another. When I got home, she had cleaned a bit, and the girls were playing, and Julia was cooking dinner. I just had this deep feeling of "rightness". That this was how it should be. It's a difficult concept to communicate clearly, so you'll just have to pretend you know what I mean ^_^

Lately, though, I've felt like I've been slacking - I'm not able to get everything done around the house that I would like to/need to. And then when Julia gets home, she'll just randomly do something that would have taken me a while to get done, while she's doing something else. It makes me feel a little down on myself. For instance, the other day I cleaned the kitchen. Then I made some banana bread and it looked like I hadn't cleaned the kitchen in the first place. The very next day I took the girls out shopping and to give Grandpa his Father's Day gift, and got home, where Julia had cleaned the kitchen and had two loafs of banana bread in the oven - and the kitchen looked GOOD. Then last night when I was reading the girls some bedtime stories, she washed all the dishes in the time it would have taken me to wash some of them.

So I get this combination feeling of intense gratitude and worthlessness, because it feels like I'm not really contributing all that much.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Arduino Experimentation Kit

Arduino Experimentation Kit - ARDX [v1.0] - $80.00

This is pretty cool. I wish they had an option sans the Arduino and breadboard, because it's just the sort of kit I would love to have. However, it does have the guide and what-not available, so I'd just have to source my own parts, which isn't a huge deal, but I wouldn't mind paying a little or not just to have the convenience of all the parts in one place.

Stil, at $80 that's quite reasonable as the arduino is $30 already. Interestingly enough it seems that the Arduino is getting cheaper and cheaper. I personally recommend everyone get one :D

But maybe that's just me :P

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Playing dress up!

So, wednesday night is girls night because my Geek has scouts. So wednesday morning I told my favorite girls that when I came home and daddy left that we would do something special! I whispered in KayLynn's ear that we would dress up like Princesses and thats all there was to it! When I got home and Daddy left that is exactly what we did!





























This was the most fun we have had in awhile. My girls are growing up so fast! I am so glad they still want to play dress u with me!

Friday, May 29, 2009

My Weight Loss Journey



Hey everyone, I know it has been a lONG time since I blogged about anything. So, I thought I would take this opportunity, when I really don't feel like working, to take a few minutes and update.
So I think it has been about 2 months and I have lost about 11 pounds. That is a big accomplishment for me. I haven't gained any of it back so I know it's going to stay off as long as I keep maintaining after I am done losing. So, during this time clothes have looked better, my stomach is FLATTER( yes, very much flatter) and I feel better. I love how I feel after I go work out.
I am eating very healthy compared to what I was eating before. ANd even before I was eating way WAY better than I was before Wayne and I met. So I know I am doing superb in that regard. I have found new and healthier ways to have the things I want. I have also learned to portion out things so that I can have other things I want.
With work and excersise and a home to clean and a husband to take care of too life has been kind of hectic. I have pictures of me throughout this time but I am at work and the pics are at home. I will post the , later so you can tell me if you see a difference.
I have till november to reach my grand goal of 180. I am at 249 now and I AM going to get there. I have no doubt. Just need to be reassured sometimes that it's actually making a difference. LOL.
Thats all for now!
~Geekheart

-Me in the green was about March and the one of me smiling was tonight :)

Monday, April 27, 2009

Woah!

I want a flying penguin!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Kind Words

Last night Geekheart and I watched the video of this talk. It got me thinking a little bit about how often we as husbands, wives, and people, tend to speak unkindly to each other, and children, even in jest.

"Gosh," the husband says sarcastically, "Maybe if you weren't such a klutz you could make me dinner without spilling all over yourself!"

"You're such an idiot," says the wife, "I can't believe you didn't see that turn back there!"

"Kid! Why can't you do anything right? You're such a slacker!" says the irate parent to their child.

If you go pretty much anywhere, you'll find husbands and wives and parents all perpetrating pain on their loved ones. It's a difficult thing to honestly examine one's life and keep an eye out for the pain we cause. Most of the times we won't even see it, because we dismiss it as "oh, I'm just joking, and (s)he knows it."

The problem is that even if we know it's a joke, it doesn't make the words any kinder.

I think one of my favourite comics that sort-of deals with the subject is the Calvin and Hobbes where Calvin breaks his dad's binoculars. His dad starts yelling and screaming, and Calvin says, as near as I can recall, "Dad, here's an idea. Let's pretend I already feel bad enough and you don't need to rub it in anymore." I believe that most of us know when we make mistakes. We tend to feel bad about them. And at the very moment we need comfort from the ones we love, they get angry and disappointed with us.

It's not good for anyone. So let's resolve to speak kinder to those we love, and those who love us. I have a sneaking suspicion that we will find ourselves happier, and life will be a lot nicer.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Slowly but gradualy

Hmmm, I don't think I spelled gradualy right. Oh well. So an update on progress. This last week has been quite hectic. We were out busily searching for a car and not home enough for me to work out. I did work out monday and tuesday. I am proud I did at least do 2 days. My geek and I have decided since we saved money on the purchase of my car :) that we will buy a Wii with Wii fit. So excited for that!!! So now I have no excuses. So when I am at home I have something that will motivate and be fun to do. Plus the girls can do it with me too.
The girls have started going to a new daycare. It is in home and Ms.Peggy only has a son. So it's just 3 of them and she takes them to the zoo and to the Museum of Discovery. They are having a blast. They have also started doing baby gymnastics! I am so proud of them when they can do my stretches with me. I am very happy with this new babysitter.
So back to healthy me. My geek is such a goober. Every time I turn around he is commenting on the fact that my stomach seems to be dissapearing. This is good, but I still feel like the big girl when i look in the mirror. Im working on that and I know that it will get better.
Things are changing and I feel great!

Friday, April 17, 2009

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So, my Geekheart is so wonderful! It impresses me so much when I see her work out, and change her eating habits. I do try to be supportive - though sometimes I'm not as supportive as I should be.

We bought some tickets to go see Disney on Ice with the girls, and we had more than we needed, so GH has been looking for someone to take with us. She finally decided on this gal that works with her who has some kids. When she came in today to pick up the tickets the lady was so excited and happy. I wish I could have been there.

Switching gears again, with my beautiful bride eating healthy, she has influenced my eating habits as well. Usually I don't eat terribly healthy, but I don't usually eat tons and tons either. But I'm eating quite a bit better now, thanks to my wife. It's really interesting, too. When she does things, I want to do them too. Sometimes (more than she knows) it even includes chores. When I'm told to do things that aren't being done by the one telling me, it's an awful lot harder to take that council at face value. Usually it gets rejected.

But I love to do things with my wife.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Old habits die hard

So, 2 weeks ago I had a personal "revelation". For those of you who know me, I am not the skinniest chick in the coop. I have always been the big girl in the crowd. Since my geek and I have been married I had been excerising sporadically, but I hadn't really changed my eating habits.
Two weeks ago, I felt like I NEEDED to work out. So, thats what I did. I went to the clubhouse, got on the elyptical and worked as hard as I could for 30 minutes. As I was running away on the machine I had a whole 30 minutes to think. I thought about my life thus far, and what I wanted. I decided being the fat girl who was pretty wasn't enough for me. I want to be as healthy as possible. I want to do what I have been told my entire life is impossible.
I have had my own family members tell me growing up that I would always be the "big girl". Well I am NOT always going to be the big girl. I am taking charge of this body that Heavenly father has provided me with and I am going to make it the best it can be. I want to be able to run with the girls. I want to live to be over a hundred. I want to feel sexy and KNOW I am sexy. I want all the things that I was told I would never have. So heres to the start of the new me.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Wha' Happened(ening?)

So, my darling wife has rightly mentioned (and especially to me) my lack of postage here (or anywhere else for that matter). I suppose that's what you get when you go to school full time, work a bit, and have a family life. But hopefully I'll be able to spend some time more often doing this sort of thing. School is over in a few weeks and that totally reminds me that I need to call and set up an appointment to have an interview for an internship this summer!

Yay! So this gal is going to call me back with available times for an interview. I'm really looking forward to it and I hope I get the job. I really love to program, and I think it will be rather good experience being able to try and maintain other people's code.

I also should see about writing up the Sieve of Eratosthenes. It's some practice for the CS Programming team. We're supposed to get to where we can write and debug that in under 5 minutes. I'm installing Visual Studio Express on my computer, since the Acxiom programming challenge only uses Visual Studio. Which is sad, because I have all sorts of nifty scripts and what-not that improve my speed... especially using Vim. Mmmm, delicious vim!

Oh well. I guess that's life for ya. Also, if I do get this job I'll be programming exclusively in Microsoft's .NET framework. I don't really have anything against it - other than it's not vi. Well, I suppose that's enough random rambling about my general geekiness.

Monday, March 30, 2009

So...

I notice that my dear husband does not post hardly ever. This was his idea, to combine our blog and then he doesn't post lol. Ah well tis the way life is I guess. So last week was kind of crazy. This month has been kind of crazy in a nutshell. KayLynn and I were in a minor accident. That wasn't very much fun. Neither one of us was hurt but I was in a little shock, or a lot of shock I don't know.
Then my dear geek and I kind of had a rough week last week. We finally talked it through. I think you get to a point in marriage where you know that nothing will get better until one of you gives in and listens. Sadly I wasn't in the listening mood all week. It didn't matter how hard my geek tried I still kept blowing up at him. I felt bad about it and would apologize but it was like evything he did plus the girls and plus work was just grating on my every nerve. Not very much fun.
It was all good though. We talked it through and I kept my mouth closed for longer than a minute and it all worked out.
So we also went to oklahoma for a visit and that was fun. We stayed at my friends house and froze the first night. It wasn't very comfortable either but I love her and I wouldn't trade that time spent with her for anything. We drove all over saturday trying to find a headlight for my car only to find out that none of the salvage yards there were open. Then we rigged it up with some self lamanating stuff and tape, that was fun.
We also went to have a visit with the girls "real father". It was rather exciting the first few minutes because he threw a fit and threatened my geek. Not cool. I was looking forward to the girls seeing their "Father" for the first time in months. I guess some people just never grow up though. But we were able to go inside and enjoy our visit with his mom and dad and his new girlfriend and the girls' half sister.
I hope that one day when the girls are older that both I and their "father" will be able to come to them and tell them the story. That they might be able to understand that they are loved and we want the best for them. I hope that I am setting a great example for them now. I have accomplished so much in the last 2 years. I have gone through a year of college with 2 children, I have found a great daddy for them, and for me, and I have an awesome job. I love my girls and i love life with them. I guess thats it for today.

Friday, March 6, 2009

sadness

So I have come to realise that some people are just not meant to be in your life forever. I am so sad because someone I thought was my best friend, someone whom I spent almost my every waking moment with, someone who knows all of my secrets, someone who held me as i cried, someone who could make me laugh no matter what, that someone has failed to be apart of my life for the last two years. They never return my calls, they never return emails or facebook messages. I feel like crying. But I do realise that sometimes people just lose touch or just would rather have nothing to do with you and I guess thats how it goes. It just sucks...

Friday, February 20, 2009

So proud

so very very proud of myself for realising my behavior last night. I was a little upset when I got home last night due to some frustration at work and having to work late. Then to top it off I came home to a husband on the computer and children making a mess. I wasn't too happy and I didin't directly tell my loved one. I just ranted and raved about and made everyone else miserable because I was. It hadn't helped that through the week I had come home with a migraine just about every night. So as I was ranting I got me some food and sat down at our bar and proceeded to eat.
As I watched my husband clean various things I realised how uptight he was and that made me think twice about how he was acting. I didn't want him to be in a bad mood too. It was already bad enough with just me. So as soon as I realised I was hurting my loved ones I apologised. I said that I was sorry for my behavior and that it just was frustrating to come home and have to work more. So we worked it out and talked(talking is the best!) and we were able to understand where both of us were coming from.
I love that my husband loves me. I am so glad that we both knew what we were getting into with this marriage. I am so thankful that were both willing to understand eachothers faults and forgive. I am so happy that he can still love me even after I am a pain :)

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Wonderful

So... I am married to the most amazing, wonderful woman there ever could be. She has a lot of patience with me and my weaknesses. And I've got a lot of them.

She also gets so happy/excited when I do some things I would consider simple (and I really love it). Her brother (whom she hasn't talked to much at his choice) just gave her his phone number (or at least a number to call him at), and she asked if she could use my phone tonight when I go to scouts.

When I told her she could, her response was incredibly enthusiastic and appreciative. For such a simple thing... It makes me wonder a little bit about gratitude. Perhaps I'll post some more if I have some time later...

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

icky

My head hurts so bad right now it stinks. I want to go home and lay down. My eyes are just barely staying open because the light is killing me. Man I woke up in a bad mood....and now I have a migraine to top it off....and im feeling puky....I need some lovin

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

lessons learned

Yesterday I was able to stay home and spend time with the girls. It was great although I wished that my geek was able to stay home too. But the school did not cancel their classes. So while being at home I did some house chores and played with the girls and read the rest of the book The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman. As I have read through this book I have asked myself many question one being, what's my love language?
When I was finished reading the book in the back their was a survey type thing that you could take to see which love language you were. I was able to realise that I have two love languages. As if one isn't hard enough to contend with. One of them is Quality time and the other was physical touch. It was right on because I always complain or ask for both of those things all the time.
Ever since I started working at my new job it has been a very difficult time trying to adjust to the time I have to spend away from my children and my loving husband. I know that he loves me but it's hard to remember that when you only see eachother 3 hours a night.
This book has taught me alot about myself and a lot about how I can be better for my Geek and help satisfy his love language "tank".
I feel much better now that I know how I am supposed to feel loved and how i am supposed to love. I love you

Monday, January 26, 2009

If I Could Save Time...

So, life can get frustrating, especially when one adds school, work, kids, and marriage on top of that. Things have been pretty rough for my Geekheart especially. She has to work long hours and the starter in her car has started to die... And she misses her girls and her geek, and sometimes said geek isn't the most attentive to her needs. He tries really hard, but there are a lot of things he's not able to do in a satisfactory fashion.

Hence, he wishes he had a lot more time.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Time!

So... It's really difficult to get the time to post. When I want to post, I have to go do something else, and usually when I have the time I don't really want to so much. Finally both desire and ability have aligned themselves, w00t!

Married life is the best, most difficult thing ever. Trying to deal with all the responsibilities of raising two kids and being a good husband AND go to school at the same time? It's really difficult. But I'm working on it...

However, like I said, it's the best. I love my wife and I love our kids and I wouldn't trade them for the world.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

So...

Lol looks like im going to keep this blog going by myself :P. So I am here at work with my brain all mushy. Totally spent the entire morning and some of the afternoon working on this Quickbooks thing. I am about to go crazy with it. I don't know how accountants do it. I almost can't understand maybe because we go so fast but I don't know.
So like with the husband is good. We had I think one of our first official "discussions" lol. I think we did really well exspressing how we felt and what we needed to be able to get things done. We are both learning and growing and I am really proud of the both of us. We have come a long way from a month ago. It is hard to believe that we have been married that long already. Time goes by fast when your actually living life instead of letting it pass you by. So anyways thats my blurb for now

Sunday, January 18, 2009

tired

So life has kept trudging on. Work has certainly kept me busy. When I am not working I am taking care of the girls or the house. In between there I sleep but not the way I need to. Seems that everything is just passing by so quickly. The girls are growing up so fast and far away from me. At the same time our family seems to be doing great. I am so thankful to Heavenly Father for the blessings he has brought into my life due to my obedience.
Today I was able to play another musical number in church. Mom accompanied me on the piano. It was a simple song out of the children's songbook. "When Jesus was Baptized". I had never heard the song before having not grown up in the church. The moment I read the words I didn't need to even hear the song. I KNEW that was the song I was supposed to play. I feel so special to be able to aware of those times when the Holy Spirit guides me. Mom and I embellished the song a bit to make it interesting and to show off my skill. Everyone loved it of course. Some of them even said I needed to play every Sunday LOL.
So life has been a little complicated at times. I feel myself being a little too growly at times with the Husband even when it's not him I am upset with. He is so good to me and patient. I can't even be patient with me. I almost can't handle how loving and caring he is to me. It doesn't matter what the situation is he always wants to find a way to make it work. He loves me no matter what and he proves it everyday. I almost have this thought in the back of my mind that before too long he will realize that he can't deal with me and the girls and just leave. But then he looks at me with his loving eyes and I know that we are meant to be together for Eternity. That we are now and forever bound together as husband and wife. I know that he loves me with his entire being and that he would never do anything to hurt me.
I am so thankful. I love you my Darling

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Work and Marriage

Well everyone we have officially now been married for about 2 and a half weeks! The time just flys by when you have so much to do. We have mostly settled into our apartment, I have started my new job(which i am rather enjoying right now) and the girls have adjusted to mostly everything. They aren't loving being with daddy all day(or at least thats what it sounds like) I dont think but all the same they will be going to daycare soon. Wayne will start his semester on the 15th. I am excited for that because the sooner he is done with school the sooner we'll be more comfortable with bills. Or maybe not, im starting to think that bills will always be something that is a heartache for many of us.
We did have our reception saturday and it turned out great. I admit I was a little frustrated because my shoulder sleeves kept falling down so Wayne and I weren't able to dance for like almost an hour. Then everyone left at like 8:25 exactly. It was rather odd but thats when wayne and I and our photographer had th most fun. No one there to make fun of us so we goofed around and acted like kids. It was the most awesome thing ever besides being married in the temple. People find it so hard to just be a kid sometimes and I do it often. I had so much fun the other night that I plan on being more playful and not caring what anyone is thinking.