Wednesday, January 28, 2009

lessons learned

Yesterday I was able to stay home and spend time with the girls. It was great although I wished that my geek was able to stay home too. But the school did not cancel their classes. So while being at home I did some house chores and played with the girls and read the rest of the book The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman. As I have read through this book I have asked myself many question one being, what's my love language?
When I was finished reading the book in the back their was a survey type thing that you could take to see which love language you were. I was able to realise that I have two love languages. As if one isn't hard enough to contend with. One of them is Quality time and the other was physical touch. It was right on because I always complain or ask for both of those things all the time.
Ever since I started working at my new job it has been a very difficult time trying to adjust to the time I have to spend away from my children and my loving husband. I know that he loves me but it's hard to remember that when you only see eachother 3 hours a night.
This book has taught me alot about myself and a lot about how I can be better for my Geek and help satisfy his love language "tank".
I feel much better now that I know how I am supposed to feel loved and how i am supposed to love. I love you

Monday, January 26, 2009

If I Could Save Time...

So, life can get frustrating, especially when one adds school, work, kids, and marriage on top of that. Things have been pretty rough for my Geekheart especially. She has to work long hours and the starter in her car has started to die... And she misses her girls and her geek, and sometimes said geek isn't the most attentive to her needs. He tries really hard, but there are a lot of things he's not able to do in a satisfactory fashion.

Hence, he wishes he had a lot more time.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Time!

So... It's really difficult to get the time to post. When I want to post, I have to go do something else, and usually when I have the time I don't really want to so much. Finally both desire and ability have aligned themselves, w00t!

Married life is the best, most difficult thing ever. Trying to deal with all the responsibilities of raising two kids and being a good husband AND go to school at the same time? It's really difficult. But I'm working on it...

However, like I said, it's the best. I love my wife and I love our kids and I wouldn't trade them for the world.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

So...

Lol looks like im going to keep this blog going by myself :P. So I am here at work with my brain all mushy. Totally spent the entire morning and some of the afternoon working on this Quickbooks thing. I am about to go crazy with it. I don't know how accountants do it. I almost can't understand maybe because we go so fast but I don't know.
So like with the husband is good. We had I think one of our first official "discussions" lol. I think we did really well exspressing how we felt and what we needed to be able to get things done. We are both learning and growing and I am really proud of the both of us. We have come a long way from a month ago. It is hard to believe that we have been married that long already. Time goes by fast when your actually living life instead of letting it pass you by. So anyways thats my blurb for now

Sunday, January 18, 2009

tired

So life has kept trudging on. Work has certainly kept me busy. When I am not working I am taking care of the girls or the house. In between there I sleep but not the way I need to. Seems that everything is just passing by so quickly. The girls are growing up so fast and far away from me. At the same time our family seems to be doing great. I am so thankful to Heavenly Father for the blessings he has brought into my life due to my obedience.
Today I was able to play another musical number in church. Mom accompanied me on the piano. It was a simple song out of the children's songbook. "When Jesus was Baptized". I had never heard the song before having not grown up in the church. The moment I read the words I didn't need to even hear the song. I KNEW that was the song I was supposed to play. I feel so special to be able to aware of those times when the Holy Spirit guides me. Mom and I embellished the song a bit to make it interesting and to show off my skill. Everyone loved it of course. Some of them even said I needed to play every Sunday LOL.
So life has been a little complicated at times. I feel myself being a little too growly at times with the Husband even when it's not him I am upset with. He is so good to me and patient. I can't even be patient with me. I almost can't handle how loving and caring he is to me. It doesn't matter what the situation is he always wants to find a way to make it work. He loves me no matter what and he proves it everyday. I almost have this thought in the back of my mind that before too long he will realize that he can't deal with me and the girls and just leave. But then he looks at me with his loving eyes and I know that we are meant to be together for Eternity. That we are now and forever bound together as husband and wife. I know that he loves me with his entire being and that he would never do anything to hurt me.
I am so thankful. I love you my Darling

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Work and Marriage

Well everyone we have officially now been married for about 2 and a half weeks! The time just flys by when you have so much to do. We have mostly settled into our apartment, I have started my new job(which i am rather enjoying right now) and the girls have adjusted to mostly everything. They aren't loving being with daddy all day(or at least thats what it sounds like) I dont think but all the same they will be going to daycare soon. Wayne will start his semester on the 15th. I am excited for that because the sooner he is done with school the sooner we'll be more comfortable with bills. Or maybe not, im starting to think that bills will always be something that is a heartache for many of us.
We did have our reception saturday and it turned out great. I admit I was a little frustrated because my shoulder sleeves kept falling down so Wayne and I weren't able to dance for like almost an hour. Then everyone left at like 8:25 exactly. It was rather odd but thats when wayne and I and our photographer had th most fun. No one there to make fun of us so we goofed around and acted like kids. It was the most awesome thing ever besides being married in the temple. People find it so hard to just be a kid sometimes and I do it often. I had so much fun the other night that I plan on being more playful and not caring what anyone is thinking.