amazing

I guess its been awhile so i should post somrthing at least. Well I fixed my car so that it was drivable. Came up to see wayne. After a long hard week of work and school I thought the last thing I wanted to do was go camping, but hey it was awesome! I thought that I was supremley terrified of canoeing/water or deep water and mom convinced me that I should at least try it. So.....I did, and it was so amazing! I have never had so much fun. I wasnt scared at all. If my lkil 2 year olds could handle it so could mommy right? so we paddled and found a hiking trail. Hiking is not one of my fave past times only because oif the extra weight that I was always carrying around. But now I love love it! It wass o much fun just exploring and bwing with family. the girls loved going through the woods and discovering hidden treasures(so did mommy ;) )So then we go swimming and come home and my sweetheart gived ME a birthday present for his birthday lol.Such an awesome feeling to know that someone loves you enough to be selfless on the day he should be. I am so grateful for the love we have for eachother.
We also went bowling. I usually am pretty good for the most part, but I totally bombed! I was at first doing pretty good AND then I totally threw every time where I almost got nothing. O well 5/6 strikes for my love isnt bad at all :P We had fun and thats what matters. I also think we got most of this wedding planned out so I think were good to go. I am so pleased with myself and everything that I have been able to accomplish with love and family on my side. Thank you gigageek!

Alrighty then

Yeah so now i dont have my other blog. I just deleted it like 5 seconds ago! i only blogged in it occasionaly and i have blogged more on this that anything so i figure ill make it simple! So lets see...life is pretty good.. Im a little stressed out with life and the wedding and the girls all at once. Then to make it Better! hah! I have school now. But they are good classes and they aren't hard for me at all. I love school. Ill be so glad to be done with it though. To be able to be home with my girls! I love playing with them. Anymore though Mommy is just so darn tired. I dont know I just feel like im letting them miss out on the fun mommy. Anyhow i will write more later. Peace!

8-bit and the 80s

So... I don't know if my geekheart really knows this about me... but I kinda dig the 80s. Not everything, but I do like a lot of retro. I think probably my favourite thing from the 80s is what's called Chiptune today. Remember the Nintendo Entertainment System? Remember those catchy bleeps, bloops, and hisses? Those sounds are what's considered chiptune. My only beef with chiptune is that often they mix severely techno tracks that make my brain hurt. I like the chiptune music that is more reminiscent of the old NES game soundtracks.

I still love World Class Track Meet for the NES, though. One of my very fave games for the NES. My fave was probably the game I own(ed) - Double Dragon II. (Coincidentally it has some awesome music on it)

super excited!!!!

SO i finally called my stake president and talked to him about what I need to do so my geek and I can get married on December 20th.It is a whole 8 days before my year date and we want to get sealed in the temple. So anyhow goo news is all i do is write a letter to the first presidency with the whys, wheres, and when information. Then send it to my stake president and he will put a letter with mine and send it off. Now thats what I call excitement!!!!its getting closer and closer and i cant. wait.!!!!

class

got a quick minute so i thought i would gush about how amazing it is to actually understand the english language for once in my life!!! its so amazing to realise that you can speak a language but never really understand the linguistics of it till you do it! im loving it anyhow and im loving life!!! and my geek!!!

Fuzziness!

My geekheart makes me feel so fuzzy, all the time! When I think of her smile, or see her pic, or hear her voice... it just sends a sensation up my spine that makes me want to yell, "WoooohOOOoowowowowhwhwhahahahah!"

Or make some similar sound.

She's just the most awesome woman, fiance, mother, girlfriend, besterest friend, soon-to-be-wife, just... anything she tries, she's awesome at!

When you read this, my beautiful geekheart, guess what!

just some random poems/thoughts

My heart is empty, or at least half gone
it left me so quietly
not willingly
left here lonely and missing
somethings gone
does it always have to get worse before it gets better?
the tears want to come
but they don't
I think for fear, of actually feeling the lonliness
the silent words left unsaid
the emotions running through my head
I feel empty without you
Im so alive when im around you
to have a love such as ours;
it's something people dream of
or even see in a movie
even that can't compare to what we have been given
yet here we are
both thinking we don't deserve the other
for reasons neither of us knows
we are here
at the same time and place
its too quiet without you
my soul aches for the missing piece
I can't wait to be fully alive
to be looked at the way you look at me
to be told I am beautiful for eternity
to feel the love radiate from your embrace
till then....
I wonder what your thinking
pray your okay
try to stay busy
hope that the next time we meet comes sooner than the time before
and tell you I love you a million times a day
and somehow,
I know that your doing the same.