Love, Dogs, and Death

This won't be nearly as long as I would like, simply because schoolwork requires attention.

Let me further preface this by saying that I don't like dogs. Most of them are smelly, annoying, and in general annoying. I don't usually get sad when I see a dead dog on the side of the road. I don't go out of my way to be cruel to a dog, but I'm usually not very "into" them you could say.

So imagine my surprise when today I got a txt from my Geekheart that informed me her puppy had died, and far from being happy or not caring even... I felt sad. I feel sad right now just writing about it. I'm sure it has nothing to do with how I feel about dogs, but instead how I feel about my fiance. My love for her is such that when the world is deprived of something that brings her happiness that it deprives /me/ of happiness.

It's an interesting feeling, to know that I love someone so much.

And a little frightening.

But love her I do, and sad I am at the passing of "Little Man".

Life, it is more than we think

It is said that once you find the one that you will know. It will be a thing of surety and you won't have to second guess yourself. I was the type to think the fairytale could be possible, just not for me. I have been proven wrong. For some reason Heavenly Father decided that I deserved this happy ending. Although, I wouldn't really call it an ending it is more of a beginning. Especially after a bunch of wrong turns or decisions I have made in the last 5 years. Or maybe they were good decisions, they led me to you. It sounds so corny but it is so true.
The love that we have has grown over time and we have cultivated it to suit us and to grow and thrive in our little family. We have learned by doing and we have made it our strength. We thrive off of one another and I think that is how it is supposed to be. Kind of like how we rely on Heavenly Father to help us endure. To listen to our fears and our worries and to comfort us in times of need. Heavenly Father knows exactly what he is doing when he influences us to do things. He leads us to the people we need to know and meet. I am so grateful for the many things I have been able to accomplish in this last year. For the growth I have had in the Lord and the gospel and the truth I know because of it.
He has proven his love for us so many times. I don't know how we could ever doubt it. H is there for us and with us every day and every moment. He knows exactly what we need and he gives it to us as long as we have faith and ask for it.
Wayne Joseph Werner, you are my true love. You are my daughters spirit father and we love you so much. I can't wait to know for sure that we are together for eternity. I love you forever and always.~Geekheart

loving you

i dont know how but loving you comes easily. its the one thing im sure of will always be there. I know that no matter what you will love me. Even if I disagree with you, even if im mad at you, even if i puke on you, you will always love me. I know that when you see girls that are pretty that all you can think about is me. You help me to believe that I am beautiful. You remind me constantly how much I mean to you and you show me too. I hope that I am as loving to you. I hope that I show you that I love you with every thing I have. I hope that my love radiates through my eyes right into your soul. I know That im going to marry you in 59 days!

excited?

Yeah i guess im excited but not excited to see you go. But ill be here waiting :P

Über Excitement

So, this Wednesday after school is over, I'm going to visit my geekheart. I'm so incredibly excited! I need to remember quite a few things, though, that I normally don't/haven't brought. I'll be there wed evening-sun afternoon. Mmm, spraching of which, I need to head to the library and pick out some audio books (they're the best for keeping alert while driving, I've found).

Read Me

You don't know it yet... but from the moment you left, there appeared a void in my life. It was like the air being let out of a balloon, "FWOOOOOOOSH!" Now I feel deflated, empty of my purpose, and basically devoid of all desire. The only light in my life is the fact that in 83 days we'll be together, never again to be parted, and in two weeks and three days I'll be able to hold you in my arms once again.

I am, as always,
forever your Gigageek.

Weekend bliss

So, Im here with my besterestest freind and fiancee again! I love you sooo much Chickenbutt! To be here again with you is so amazingly incredible. It makes leaving you harder and harder each time we have to. I can't wait for he next 84 days to go by so that we can be married. We are so good together and so many people look forever for what we already have. I am so grateful for your love and friendship. I am a better everything because of you. i have tried harder, believed in myself more, and actually thought I was pretty/beautiful for once. You give me what  I need to be whole. I am a stronger instrument in Heavenly Fathers hands because of your love and guidance. Our paths may have sidetracked us for a little while and we might even have gotten bruised in the process. Here we are stronger and better for one another. I love you gigageek. por eternidad mi suavecito ;)