so life has been kind of crazy lately. Ok! Really crazy. I just want to stop this merry go round and get off. The last 4 months have gone by like they never even happened.
1. Had to take over a fundraising campaign that an ex-co-worker didn't complete right before i was leaving for maternity leave
2. Had my sweet little Rosalyn Adelene Isabel Werner on may 7th
3. Had my bestfriend and mom out to help after the birth
4. Had problems nursing and found out rosalyn was tongue tied
5. Flew to utah with 5 children under the age of 5 for my SIL wedding
6. Went back to work (so not fun)
7. My dear BIL passed away after a long battle with cancer (i will miss him)
8. Started taking medicine for postpartum depression
so much has happened , and that list is only a couple of things. I am so glad my geek is coming home tonight . I will feel whole again. :)
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
So Sad and alone..
So , my BIL passed away on saturday night...we were expecting it but not so quickly. I had to send my geek off to be with his family without me because I couldn't go because of our financial situation. Also, since starting work I have sunk into a deep depression, or postpartum. I don't even want to try anymore. So many things all at once. Makes things not worth it. If it weren't for having to take care of my babies I would probably run away.
Nothing is making me feel better. Not having my geek hurts so much and then it hurts even worse feeling like im not even apart of the family. I hate being a single mom. This just brings up all my issues.I hate this...
Friday, May 21, 2010
Luck!
I am the luckiest man alive! Why am I? Because I am married to the most wonderful, beautiful, incredible woman in the world; I have two three wonderful daughters; I get paid to play!
I have been married for 1.466 years now to a woman who has helped me to grow, to learn more about myself and being selfless and patient than anything or anyone else. She has been by my side through the good and the bad, she is the mother of my children, and I cannot say enough good about her. If that were all I would be incredibly lucky. But we also have three wonderful girls who teach me a bit more about love and selflessness and life and patience. They are totally wonderful.
And then I just got an internship at the Arkansas Highway and Transportation Department, and it feels like I get paid to play. I write programs which is something that I absolutely love. I get to go to work early (7:30 am) and leave @ 4:00 pm. And invariably when it gets to 3:00 pm I start thinking "Darn it! I only have an hour left!" then I remember that I have a wonderful family waiting for me at home and so it's easy to leave.
Sure there are some daily challenges and everything... but life is awesome
I have been married for 1.466 years now to a woman who has helped me to grow, to learn more about myself and being selfless and patient than anything or anyone else. She has been by my side through the good and the bad, she is the mother of my children, and I cannot say enough good about her. If that were all I would be incredibly lucky. But we also have three wonderful girls who teach me a bit more about love and selflessness and life and patience. They are totally wonderful.
And then I just got an internship at the Arkansas Highway and Transportation Department, and it feels like I get paid to play. I write programs which is something that I absolutely love. I get to go to work early (7:30 am) and leave @ 4:00 pm. And invariably when it gets to 3:00 pm I start thinking "Darn it! I only have an hour left!" then I remember that I have a wonderful family waiting for me at home and so it's easy to leave.
Sure there are some daily challenges and everything... but life is awesome
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Skating
Sitting here outside my physics classroom, waiting for the biology(?) class to get finished, I was just struck with a severe desire to go roller skating. Being that my wife is giving birth next Friday, it would be me teaching my kiddos how to skate... but I just really want to right now. Weird, huh?
Monday, April 26, 2010
11 days to go...
So, the countdown is getting closer and closer to the end! ahhhhh! I can't even hardly think about it because it scares me and makes me extremely happy at the same time. Crazy how emotions are.
Chilling here at work not able to concentrate due to the ache in my bottom from sitting and the baby kicking and moving constantly. It's amazing how much this little booger moves. Not that he/she has that much room to move anyways.
Was talking with my boss today and realized that this is my last full week working! and I almost went into panic mode. I have so much to do when it comes to work and I feel awful leaving things and not being able to do them. But I will be so extremely happy and blissful that it will be easy to ignore work once the baby is here.
I just hope that things will be smooth and that nothing will go completely haywire while I am gone. I have a hard enough time staying home when one of the girls is sick. I usually find some reason to come in and do something. It wouldn't surprise that once the doctor says i can drive again that I find one reason or another to make it into work and work for a few minutes before someone tells me to go home lol.
I can't believe that in 11 days I will be holding this precious baby in my arms. I can't wait to see what you look like, how your eyes will be colored, will you have hair? I want to count those toes and fingers that have been poking and prodding me and just LOOK at you. It's amazing what me and my geek have been able to produce with our love. All because Heavenly Father brought us together, now we can bring you into the world to learn and to follow the straight and narrow path. I can promise it won't be easy BUT it is worth it. Heavenly Father told you of his plan and you accepted and now he has sent you to us. We are so lucky to have been chosen to be your parents here on this earth and for eternity. I love you baby werner!
Chilling here at work not able to concentrate due to the ache in my bottom from sitting and the baby kicking and moving constantly. It's amazing how much this little booger moves. Not that he/she has that much room to move anyways.
Was talking with my boss today and realized that this is my last full week working! and I almost went into panic mode. I have so much to do when it comes to work and I feel awful leaving things and not being able to do them. But I will be so extremely happy and blissful that it will be easy to ignore work once the baby is here.
I just hope that things will be smooth and that nothing will go completely haywire while I am gone. I have a hard enough time staying home when one of the girls is sick. I usually find some reason to come in and do something. It wouldn't surprise that once the doctor says i can drive again that I find one reason or another to make it into work and work for a few minutes before someone tells me to go home lol.
I can't believe that in 11 days I will be holding this precious baby in my arms. I can't wait to see what you look like, how your eyes will be colored, will you have hair? I want to count those toes and fingers that have been poking and prodding me and just LOOK at you. It's amazing what me and my geek have been able to produce with our love. All because Heavenly Father brought us together, now we can bring you into the world to learn and to follow the straight and narrow path. I can promise it won't be easy BUT it is worth it. Heavenly Father told you of his plan and you accepted and now he has sent you to us. We are so lucky to have been chosen to be your parents here on this earth and for eternity. I love you baby werner!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
pregnancy
So, I have so much to do and should be doing right now here at work. But I don't want to so I figure I will post for those of you who do read this.
So I am officially 28 weeks, feeling huge and very ready for this baby to be here. At this point I have two callings in church, nursery leader and I am on the relief society enrichment committee. On top of this I am working full time, taking care of the girls, and going crazy. There is not enough time in the day. I am tired by 2 in the afternoon and never willing to wake up in the morning.
We finally were able to take this past weekend and drive to Oklahoma to visit my family. I was very grateful to Wayne he drove the entire time. I would have fallen asleep at the wheel probably. Anywhoo, I had lots of fun visiting with my Aunt and just getting to be around her. She is like my mommy so I have to get my fix every once in awhile. We also took the girls to see my ex's mom and dad. They got to get their Christmas presents finally and they played around with the Papa. I am so very glad that I can have an awesome relationship with them even after everything with their son.
We also visited my friend April and I was able to take her some baby girl clothes I had been hanging onto for her. We dressed Alexis up in the green lacy dress I had found and she was so stinking adorable. We had a little photo shoot since Aprils camera was stolen. But the biggest thing was watching Wayne interact with the baby. Alexis is a little over a month old now and still tiny and he held her while she was sleeping (Uber cute!)and then he fed her! I almost cried watching them together. Just a little glimpse into what our lives will be like in 10 weeks. It's so amazing to think about.
KayLynn and Karyn are doing great. They are honery as ever and think they are grown ups.I pulled out some workbooks from Sing, Read and Write system that mom and dad got for the girls and I was helping KayLynn and asked her to tell me what certain letters were and all of a sudden I realized....SHE IS READING HER LETTERS! They weren't in alphabetical order, we were in the AEIOU part of the book and I was just amazed at how smart my little girl was. Of course I then tried to work with Karyn and she was more interested in scribbling and laughing at me trying to help her. So I figure she knows, she just doesn't care to brag about it which is just fine with me.
So thats about it for now. I better get to work. I have wasted enough time for now.
So I am officially 28 weeks, feeling huge and very ready for this baby to be here. At this point I have two callings in church, nursery leader and I am on the relief society enrichment committee. On top of this I am working full time, taking care of the girls, and going crazy. There is not enough time in the day. I am tired by 2 in the afternoon and never willing to wake up in the morning.
We finally were able to take this past weekend and drive to Oklahoma to visit my family. I was very grateful to Wayne he drove the entire time. I would have fallen asleep at the wheel probably. Anywhoo, I had lots of fun visiting with my Aunt and just getting to be around her. She is like my mommy so I have to get my fix every once in awhile. We also took the girls to see my ex's mom and dad. They got to get their Christmas presents finally and they played around with the Papa. I am so very glad that I can have an awesome relationship with them even after everything with their son.
We also visited my friend April and I was able to take her some baby girl clothes I had been hanging onto for her. We dressed Alexis up in the green lacy dress I had found and she was so stinking adorable. We had a little photo shoot since Aprils camera was stolen. But the biggest thing was watching Wayne interact with the baby. Alexis is a little over a month old now and still tiny and he held her while she was sleeping (Uber cute!)and then he fed her! I almost cried watching them together. Just a little glimpse into what our lives will be like in 10 weeks. It's so amazing to think about.
KayLynn and Karyn are doing great. They are honery as ever and think they are grown ups.I pulled out some workbooks from Sing, Read and Write system that mom and dad got for the girls and I was helping KayLynn and asked her to tell me what certain letters were and all of a sudden I realized....SHE IS READING HER LETTERS! They weren't in alphabetical order, we were in the AEIOU part of the book and I was just amazed at how smart my little girl was. Of course I then tried to work with Karyn and she was more interested in scribbling and laughing at me trying to help her. So I figure she knows, she just doesn't care to brag about it which is just fine with me.
So thats about it for now. I better get to work. I have wasted enough time for now.
Monday, February 15, 2010
idiot driver
Ugh!
Today I had the most amazingly awful morning! first of all this child I am carrying thinks it's ok to wake mom up at 2:30 in the morning and play and not let me go back to sleep. I was up until 4 and when the alarm went off at 6:30 this morning I was so not ready to get up. Then I am off and go to walmart to pick up a gift card for one of our scholarship recipients. It takes them 15 minutes to verify whether I am able to authorize the use of the check. I told them it wasn't the first time and it wouldn't be the last. I am spending money in their store you would think they would just take it.
After leaving walmart I realized I had left my phone at home. So I go home and get it, only to find that KayLynn dropped her baggie with her valentines cards in them. I knew she would be upset so I drove to her school to give them to her. That indeed was a proud mommy moment. She was so happy to see that I had found her cards. She had worked so hard on them yesterday.
So, then traffic is great I am heading up the hill to work and an idiot driver swerves into my lane! No signal no nothing! in order not to hit her I brake a little swerve and honk and I end up getting smacked by a branch. Which by the way scared the pee out of me. So this dumb driver continues to stay in front of me acting like nothing happened. So while I am burning holes into the back of her head I realise that my mirror is gone! Holy cow! are you kidding me! and there is nothing I can do about it! by this time I am seething mad that this woman is still in front of me and has the audacity to look in her mirror straight at me and smile like nothing is wrong.
If I wasn't pregnant I would have let her hit me! I would have kept on the gas and made sure she got me a new car. I need a new one anyways. But I am carrying my little geek and I want nothing to happen. So, I end up with a passenger side casing with no mirror and a license plate number make and model of a car and a sweet little smile to make my day..... :|
Today I had the most amazingly awful morning! first of all this child I am carrying thinks it's ok to wake mom up at 2:30 in the morning and play and not let me go back to sleep. I was up until 4 and when the alarm went off at 6:30 this morning I was so not ready to get up. Then I am off and go to walmart to pick up a gift card for one of our scholarship recipients. It takes them 15 minutes to verify whether I am able to authorize the use of the check. I told them it wasn't the first time and it wouldn't be the last. I am spending money in their store you would think they would just take it.
After leaving walmart I realized I had left my phone at home. So I go home and get it, only to find that KayLynn dropped her baggie with her valentines cards in them. I knew she would be upset so I drove to her school to give them to her. That indeed was a proud mommy moment. She was so happy to see that I had found her cards. She had worked so hard on them yesterday.
So, then traffic is great I am heading up the hill to work and an idiot driver swerves into my lane! No signal no nothing! in order not to hit her I brake a little swerve and honk and I end up getting smacked by a branch. Which by the way scared the pee out of me. So this dumb driver continues to stay in front of me acting like nothing happened. So while I am burning holes into the back of her head I realise that my mirror is gone! Holy cow! are you kidding me! and there is nothing I can do about it! by this time I am seething mad that this woman is still in front of me and has the audacity to look in her mirror straight at me and smile like nothing is wrong.
If I wasn't pregnant I would have let her hit me! I would have kept on the gas and made sure she got me a new car. I need a new one anyways. But I am carrying my little geek and I want nothing to happen. So, I end up with a passenger side casing with no mirror and a license plate number make and model of a car and a sweet little smile to make my day..... :|
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