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got a quick minute so i thought i would gush about how amazing it is to actually understand the english language for once in my life!!! its so amazing to realise that you can speak a language but never really understand the linguistics of it till you do it! im loving it anyhow and im loving life!!! and my geek!!!

Fuzziness!

My geekheart makes me feel so fuzzy, all the time! When I think of her smile, or see her pic, or hear her voice... it just sends a sensation up my spine that makes me want to yell, "WoooohOOOoowowowowhwhwhahahahah!"

Or make some similar sound.

She's just the most awesome woman, fiance, mother, girlfriend, besterest friend, soon-to-be-wife, just... anything she tries, she's awesome at!

When you read this, my beautiful geekheart, guess what!

just some random poems/thoughts

My heart is empty, or at least half gone
it left me so quietly
not willingly
left here lonely and missing
somethings gone
does it always have to get worse before it gets better?
the tears want to come
but they don't
I think for fear, of actually feeling the lonliness
the silent words left unsaid
the emotions running through my head
I feel empty without you
Im so alive when im around you
to have a love such as ours;
it's something people dream of
or even see in a movie
even that can't compare to what we have been given
yet here we are
both thinking we don't deserve the other
for reasons neither of us knows
we are here
at the same time and place
its too quiet without you
my soul aches for the missing piece
I can't wait to be fully alive
to be looked at the way you look at me
to be told I am beautiful for eternity
to feel the love radiate from your embrace
till then....
I wonder what your thinking
pray your okay
try to stay busy
hope that the next time we meet comes sooner than the time before
and tell you I love you a million times a day
and somehow,
I know that your doing the same.

Another Best Weekend

I had another best weekend ever! You might ask, how I could have more than one best weekend ever? Easy! As it turns out, my Geekheart is so amazing that she can actually split the space-time contiuum, creating several "Best Weekends Ever" - specifically, each weekend we get to spend together. Which will never be enough (people have said that guys always say that at the beginning... I honestly can't imagine how it could not be, later... Even with all the bills, and hardships and heartaches and rewards and mountains of money... Even imagining all that, I still feel such love and gratitude for my Geekheart).

We had a lot of fun, as she posted down there, so I won't reiterate what all we did. I miss my Geekheart terribly. And my little geeklets. I left half of myself in Oklahoma... and that sounds like some bad country song.

so loved

wow! just when you think that you love someone as much as you can it changes and you end up loving them even more than you did. We had such a great time doing things together. I am so grateful to have someone in my life that will just go with me. Doesn't matter what it is he is willing to try. He doesn't even see it as a big deal. That to me is something I have never had. I have always had someone who complained about doing things together. Isn't that what a relationship is all about? please correct me if im wrong. Any how....we did a bunch of things that I have always thought about doing and took my geek to the peak of the worlds highest hill ^....and to the drive- in where we fought to stay awake and ate a ton of popcorn. It was all so surreal though. We knew we only had a little time and it always seems to fly by so fast when were together. I don't know how we'll make it through the next 149 days. But im guessing that somehow or another we will because we have eachother and eternity and our geeklets to look forward to.

Visit

Yay Im also excited that my Geek is coming to town. He hasn't been down for awhile. It's usually me going there. And yes honey you may not have much money to spend on your girls. But you do have the time abd the love to give us and thats all that matters. I love you so much!!!!! Can't wait to see you!

Excitement!

Thursday, probably about 1PM, I will be leaving home to go to Oklahoma to see my geekheart! I'm rather excited, if you couldn't guess :D

Though I am kinda sad, because I don't have much money (school books anyone?) to spend on my girls... hmmm... so... I might have to do something else instead :D

Creativity... even better! w00t!