So proud

so very very proud of myself for realising my behavior last night. I was a little upset when I got home last night due to some frustration at work and having to work late. Then to top it off I came home to a husband on the computer and children making a mess. I wasn't too happy and I didin't directly tell my loved one. I just ranted and raved about and made everyone else miserable because I was. It hadn't helped that through the week I had come home with a migraine just about every night. So as I was ranting I got me some food and sat down at our bar and proceeded to eat.
As I watched my husband clean various things I realised how uptight he was and that made me think twice about how he was acting. I didn't want him to be in a bad mood too. It was already bad enough with just me. So as soon as I realised I was hurting my loved ones I apologised. I said that I was sorry for my behavior and that it just was frustrating to come home and have to work more. So we worked it out and talked(talking is the best!) and we were able to understand where both of us were coming from.
I love that my husband loves me. I am so glad that we both knew what we were getting into with this marriage. I am so thankful that were both willing to understand eachothers faults and forgive. I am so happy that he can still love me even after I am a pain :)

Wonderful

So... I am married to the most amazing, wonderful woman there ever could be. She has a lot of patience with me and my weaknesses. And I've got a lot of them.

She also gets so happy/excited when I do some things I would consider simple (and I really love it). Her brother (whom she hasn't talked to much at his choice) just gave her his phone number (or at least a number to call him at), and she asked if she could use my phone tonight when I go to scouts.

When I told her she could, her response was incredibly enthusiastic and appreciative. For such a simple thing... It makes me wonder a little bit about gratitude. Perhaps I'll post some more if I have some time later...

icky

My head hurts so bad right now it stinks. I want to go home and lay down. My eyes are just barely staying open because the light is killing me. Man I woke up in a bad mood....and now I have a migraine to top it off....and im feeling puky....I need some lovin

lessons learned

Yesterday I was able to stay home and spend time with the girls. It was great although I wished that my geek was able to stay home too. But the school did not cancel their classes. So while being at home I did some house chores and played with the girls and read the rest of the book The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman. As I have read through this book I have asked myself many question one being, what's my love language?
When I was finished reading the book in the back their was a survey type thing that you could take to see which love language you were. I was able to realise that I have two love languages. As if one isn't hard enough to contend with. One of them is Quality time and the other was physical touch. It was right on because I always complain or ask for both of those things all the time.
Ever since I started working at my new job it has been a very difficult time trying to adjust to the time I have to spend away from my children and my loving husband. I know that he loves me but it's hard to remember that when you only see eachother 3 hours a night.
This book has taught me alot about myself and a lot about how I can be better for my Geek and help satisfy his love language "tank".
I feel much better now that I know how I am supposed to feel loved and how i am supposed to love. I love you

If I Could Save Time...

So, life can get frustrating, especially when one adds school, work, kids, and marriage on top of that. Things have been pretty rough for my Geekheart especially. She has to work long hours and the starter in her car has started to die... And she misses her girls and her geek, and sometimes said geek isn't the most attentive to her needs. He tries really hard, but there are a lot of things he's not able to do in a satisfactory fashion.

Hence, he wishes he had a lot more time.

Time!

So... It's really difficult to get the time to post. When I want to post, I have to go do something else, and usually when I have the time I don't really want to so much. Finally both desire and ability have aligned themselves, w00t!

Married life is the best, most difficult thing ever. Trying to deal with all the responsibilities of raising two kids and being a good husband AND go to school at the same time? It's really difficult. But I'm working on it...

However, like I said, it's the best. I love my wife and I love our kids and I wouldn't trade them for the world.

So...

Lol looks like im going to keep this blog going by myself :P. So I am here at work with my brain all mushy. Totally spent the entire morning and some of the afternoon working on this Quickbooks thing. I am about to go crazy with it. I don't know how accountants do it. I almost can't understand maybe because we go so fast but I don't know.
So like with the husband is good. We had I think one of our first official "discussions" lol. I think we did really well exspressing how we felt and what we needed to be able to get things done. We are both learning and growing and I am really proud of the both of us. We have come a long way from a month ago. It is hard to believe that we have been married that long already. Time goes by fast when your actually living life instead of letting it pass you by. So anyways thats my blurb for now